rose marshack : whyamistillawake.com

I’m currently struggling with

1) Cleaning my house (ongoing for years) - too much clutter. What does it mean? I am too attached to weird stupid things, like these little ribbons I bought in Lhasa 5 years ago. I should stuff them in a drawer. Also, shirts that I have only worn for an hour. Stuff that I need to put in my closet except that I cannot put it there because Gram’s asleep in his room, where my closet is. Maybe we do need a bigger house? No. Less stuff. (Problem: Attachment)

2) Trying to do less. Simplifying. I tend to gravitate towards things that are much easier (and more fun) for me to do at work. Then I tend to spend a lot of time with them. (Problem: Fear)

3) Eating less. I am eating too much and I’m going to get fat if I keep it up. Being fat will make me not as happy, and not as healthy. But before I eat that cookie or ice-cream sundae I tell myself “I deserve this.” What the hell does that mean? I deserve to be unhealthy? (Problem: Attachment, and possibly, stupidity)

4) Breathing. I am not breathing correctly all the time, and am not mindful of the breath. I also notice that I am tense a lot of the time. Solution: be more mindful, of course! Duh.

I think this is a good start. There’s tons of stuff, but these four things are good to work on.
I love the mid-year New Year’s Resolutions.